Oh my goodness did I forget what it was like to be a new mom! Yes sleep deprivation is a real thing. It wasn’t easy at first but now we're getting into a routine. I had to remember baby J has a lot to get used to and not being in my belly anymore is a drastic change for her. As for me it is still taking me some time to get used to taking care of a 2 year old and a newborn during the day while everyone is at school and work. That is a lot of work! However, it’s been a lot of fun.
Another thing I forgot about… separation anxiety. When you carry a child in your womb for 9 months then spend every moment with them, supplying all of their needs you become kind of attached to them. You tend to not want to be away from them for any amount of time. Now I know my husband is more than capable of taking care of the kids so this is nothing against him but I had the absolute worst case of separation anxiety today.
I had to go to the Dr’s office and it didn’t seem like the best idea to take a newborn with me. For one she hasn’t had her shots yet and for another it was really cold outside. So since dad had the day off he stayed home with the kids.
I was only gone for 2 hours but the whole time I was so stressed out and in a rush to get home to her. The entire time I was out I was just hoping and praying she wasn’t crying. By the time I did get home she was curled up with her dad fast asleep on one side of his lap while Jr. was kicked back on the other side of dad’s lap watching Spiderman.
I felt so silly be worried. Then a few hours later hubby admitted she had cried for a little while I was gone but he was able to get her calmed down. I know I will get passed the separation anxiety and she will too. Until then, I think I’ll skip my errands and send hubby instead.