When I was younger friends meant everything to me. I had a wide variety of them but they just weren’t right for me. I was a lonely kid and just wanted people around. I remember being 16 yrs. old and one 4th of July I got off of work early and went with 2 of my “best friends” to see fireworks. While out we ran into a couple of guys that we knew. They both liked each of them. I was the 5th wheel. The second I turned my back they left me. I felt so embarrassed having to call one of my older friends for a ride.
As I got older nothing changed in the friend department. I had a lot of them. We would go clubbing and out for drinks or dinner. They just all happened to be busy when I was at my lowest and needed someone the most. Being tired of wasting my time with the wrong people and wanting to be a good role model for my kids I started cutting off more and more people.
Since I left Arizona a year ago I haven’t made any friends. Don’t get me wrong; I’ve met people here in Florida. I’m just picky now about whom I call a friend. This is a fresh start for me. My time is valuable and I no longer want to waste it on anyone. I’ll take my time and find friends that are good and worthwhile. Friends that I have something in common with. I guess what I’m trying to say is I’m looking for my Samantha, Miranda and Charlotte. Of course I get to be Carrie.