Saturday, November 1, 2014

If I Could Slow Down Time

If I were ever able to slow down time I would slow down my children growing up. I know it sounds crazy because who wants to spend a lifetime changing dirty diapers and having safety latches on the cabinets. Which face it the only people those safety gadgets are keeping out of anything are the parents.


My oldest child is 16 years old and my youngest is 10 months with five other ages in between. I love my kids just like a mother should. I crave the feeling of being needed. As I see my children grow up and become independent I feel a slight tug at my heart. I’ve raised them to be self sufficient yes, but at the same time as they’re growing up they need me less. That’s the point thou isn’t it? To raise our kids to not depend on us and fend for themselves so they can make it in the real world.

I’ve been a mom for so long I have no idea what I’ll do with myself the day they are all grown up. I’ve got a long way to go before it comes to that but as I see the baby grow by leaps and bounds I think back to the day we bought her home and I was all she needed. Now she’s walking and playing with her siblings and only cries for me when she falls, gets sleepy or hungry.


I’m sure this feeling will pass. I hope it will pass. I have no choice. I have to let them grow and be free. I’m confident in the way they are being raised. They will make good decisions in life and they will make bad ones. There will be ups and downs but through it all they will know they will always have a place to call home.
                               
                                     NaBloPoMo November 2014

8 comments:

  1. I totally know how you feel and I'm going through something similar now. I wish I could keep Bee a baby forever. She's nearly 3 and she's so independent already. It makes me so sad that she needs me less and less because I want her to need me more. But that's just part of growing up and being parents I guess.

    --Me and My Mini Me
    www.meandmyminime.com

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    1. Awww you and Bee are an awesome pair. You will always be close and she will always need her mama.

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  2. My son is 4 and my daughter is 18 months and I try to remind myself all the time that as difficult as it can be I will miss them being young.

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    1. It is really hard when they are little but it is also a real joy. I know how you feel.

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  3. This really hit home for me! My daughter has just turned two and is SO independent! It's crazy how I can be so proud of her for being able to do things on her own, yet so sad that she doesn't need me as much! The thing that makes it tough is knowing that from here on it's just going to snowball until she really doesn't "need" me for anything.

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    1. Exactly! At least it is something we are eased into. They don't just wake up one day fully capable of fending for themselves.

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  4. It's so hard to let them grow up. Today, my daughter reached a milestone (ahem), and I just cannot believe it. And I looked at my son this morning and realized how he probably will look like as an adult and teen. It's not that I don't want them to grow up, but I need more time! Visiting from Mommy Needs a Time Out!

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    1. Oh wow! Yes that is when it all goes down hill lol Been there several times. Thank you for sharing in our link up.

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