I was born to create. I’m happy when I’m using my hands and making things. I love making anything that is esthetically pleasing to the eye or stimulates the mind. If I’m not doing something that is creative and lets me express myself I am absolutely miserable.
I know for a fact it is impossible to use up all your creativity and you do in fact gain more as you use what you have.
I went to school for cosmetology years ago because doing hair and makeup is creating art. I love art. I’m not very good with a paintbrush but I’m damn good with a hair and makeup brush.
As much as I love doing hair and makeup I soon found something else I love just a much. Fashion design. While I was pregnant with my 5th child I launched my clothing line during Tucson fashion week.
Even with hair, makeup and fashion I had another calling that I sat aside years ago and now needed attention. I began blogging because I’ve been a writer from a very young age. So much so my mother always thought I would be a famous writer one day (from her lips to God's ears). I decided to take my love of beauty and fashion and apply it to a blog.
When I moved to Florida two years ago and didn’t know anyone and that can get pretty lonely. I was pregnant with baby #7 and it became harder and harder to sit at my sewing machine with my growing belly. I always saw my mom crocheting and the beautiful things she would make. I realized you can make some really amazing things with yarn and a hook while propped up on the couch or in bed. So I learned to crochet.
Even thou I was born to create and make people look and feel beautiful creativity is a double-edged sword. Whenever I create something I become afraid. Afraid of what the world will think when they see it. Afraid of what people will say if they don’t get it, don’t understand it, don't understand me.
So either I sit and live in misery and fear or I create and be happy. I rather be happy.